What you think vs What really is the matter, that's where all the magic happens. Finding your calling in the wholesome diversified world is the place where you mettle the loop of existence. Not everything is written in articles, something is always left to answer in the comments when the crowd actually filters itself of its imagination into what practically works. We are not doom, or death and even the vice versa; we are the brokers of fine-tuning. The readers need to upskill to understand? No, let slow and steady drive an internal quest to question what is already answered in experiences.
If you would read all of my articles, my comments and even talked to me for once; I would have more than happy to speak on the level that matches the vibe. I have always talked about base building, about Anlom Vilom, About tratak and people are here to jump onto dangerous sadhnas and if not sadhnas, some dangerous experiences. If you will read newspapers and how maniacs and animalistic ways to achieveing ends have been taken up in name of Tantra; it demonizes the whole concept of expansion or atleast Tantra as it is.
A long time ago ( around 2015 ) once I was working on internalising Dhumavati and somewhat overlaying it with Pratyangira Devi energies. I asked the mother if it will work and she said it will backfire. But I still continued and somehow with a month of doing it; I somehow happened to have severe allergies , hives, urticaria. And then also being adamant, I did not ask mother any solution as I wasn't dying I was plain suffering. Doctor advised Anti-histamines which are meant to contain allergies , would only trigger worse reactions. I stopped medicines after an on and off with its usage in a week or so and also had a temporary relief from Ayurvedic formulas. Finally I asked mother for help in removing it and she guided me to a guy. That guy was an old family man of 80+ years and he discussed as how his teacher did things to make him an expert that he's now. No medicines, nothing. Just something out of the ordinary he did and along with a next step that I had to do at home. And I was fine. I explain in depth to only people who know the subject, lest alone creating controversies from mindless creatures.
And weeks later, Mother told me to wear that mala. That mala is more like how you can even silent even most dangerous mixups of energies and also has lot more benefits of how energies move about in the body. It's a gift that has travelled a lot back in time. Almost in 2000s. It was of a Saint who has since left his mortal coils. He was very much known in the spiritual circles. One controversial lady/guy almost few years back bragged a lot on internet being the disciple of that Saint. Anyways, that Mala was gifted by that Saint to one of my pious friend in the South. I have a lot of friends and this guy gave it away to me on my visit in 2013 telling me how Mother Dhumavati came in his dreams to gift it to me. I would never gift such a thing to anyone, not even to the one whom I loved the most, not even if the deity herself would have appeared and told me. I would have countered as if a kid for his toy. It has just 54 beads and 55th is a Meru; just like how 108 beads and 109th is the meru. I hope the story was enlightening to read. Small experiences keep happening day in and day out, we only focus to share some fascinating one, with some information hidden not for the fear of trolling but just to maintain sanctity of the process. One should only imagine that if it's what I share is that revealing and crazy; what's in store for what's not being shared.
Real depth doesn’t come from chasing intensity. It comes from staying steady long enough for something to actually root inside you. When you get spiritually arrogant, life has a way of correcting you. And most of the time, the first place it shows up is in the body. When you’re out of alignment, the body keeps the score. Ego stretches suffering. It makes you endure things you could simply bow through. The moment humility enters, things start moving again. There are forms of healing that don’t fit neatly into modern systems. But that doesn’t mean you throw logic away. It takes discernment — not blind belief, not blind rejection. Real tools aren’t collectibles. They carry weight. If something holds power, it also holds responsibility. When a spiritual path looks corrupted, it’s usually not the path — it’s the impatience or immaturity of the people trying to bend it to their will. In the end, real spiritual work isn’t about conquering forces. It’s about adjusting yourself — again and again — until you’re tuned properly.
Article would have been controversial 😅 or say exciting 🤣🤣🤣 if I had listed the powers of that mala, name of the saint ( I've deliberately not included important information of his passing away from this world like what was his last act in his final days. His name search on youtube will only give 1-2 videos, yet he was very famous in his spiritual circles), name of that controversial disciple etc etc. Guess what the gift was? It was an answer even before the question of existencial crisis arose later in my life. Worth a gazillion bucks : The Mala ♥️
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