My Tryst with the Fierce Mother: Kali Maa’s Dance Through My Life

 


🌑 Beginnings in School

My connection with Mother Divine, Kali Maa, has always been wild, twisted, and anything but ordinary.

Back in school, I used to buy huge books filled with Her mantras, dhyan shlokas, stotras, and kavachs.
I tried reading them all but found most too complex.

Then — I stumbled upon a simple Bengali song, a small mantra of Hers.
I began chanting it obsessively.

And what followed was intense:

  • My body surged with uncontrollable energy

  • I wanted to dance, run, scream — do a hundred things at once

  • Worst part? I couldn’t even drive safely


🏍️ The Bike & the Dance with Death

One day while riding my bike, chanting Her name — the bike and I began shaking, dancing.

On a deserted road, a car appeared opposite me.

  • I moved right, the car moved left.

  • I moved left, the car mirrored me again.

  • Back and forth — five to six rounds.

We were seconds away from collision when suddenly, both vehicles diverged at the last possible moment — barely 1–2 feet apart.

We stopped. Looked back. Stunned.
That moment changed me forever.

I realized:

Kali is not your average Divine friend.
She is fierce, untamed.
She finishes karmas with speed and brutality.
She can flip destiny before it’s even written.


🔥 Mantras Too Strong to Hold

Years passed. I stopped following the heavy books. Sometimes I’d even tear out a page — as if to “let go” of Her.

Then came another encounter — an unwritten mantra.
I chanted it for a week… then abruptly stopped.

Why? My body went haywire:

  • Ate like ten people

  • Drank water endlessly

  • But excreted like a newborn

In dreams, karmas were burned away — visions of suffering that never had to manifest in waking life.

I realized:

Worshipping Kali is like upgrading both hardware and software — at cosmic speed.

Her force was too much. I stopped again.
But She never left me.


🛕 The Holy Shopkeeper & His Ganas

Years later, I met a humble shopkeeper — a holy man in disguise.
Around him were Maa Kali’s Ganas — beings that could shift objects, read minds, cause or cure destruction.

But he lived simply — ran community kitchens every Thursday in the name of a benevolent Fakir.

I supported him:

  • Donated thousands monthly

  • Supplied kitchen tools, stocked his shop

  • Bought a high-end laptop for his daughter (she thought it was from him)

This went on for 3–5 years.

One day, I asked him about his Ganas.
He exploded in anger. As if I’d asked for his soul.
I was hurt — he could’ve just said no.


⚔️ Spiritual Warfare

Soon after:

  • My bike parts began falling apart

  • I had 5–6 accidents, yet survived

  • Dreams turned darker — filled with disturbed spirits, eunuchs, tormented souls

Then — the alloy of my brand-new bike broke twice in two days.

Still, I didn’t give in.

But the final blow came:
I woke with an arrow-like pain piercing my chest.
Later in the bath — saw 4–5 deep red scratch marks torn into my thigh.

I was shaken.


🐯 The Nuclear Response

I lit an agarbatti, invoked Pratyangira Devi.
Within 5 minutes, I launched what I call a nuclear spiritual blow.

  • The arrow-pain vanished instantly

  • It was Baan-Vidya — an ancient energy attack I had only read about

The result?

  • His shop shut down that very day

  • A week later, he was hospitalized — completely unwell

To balance the Ganas and the forces stirred,
I returned to Kali Maa — with intensity.


🔥 Kali does not “stay” with you. She takes you over.
Her love is brutal, her lessons uncompromising.
But once She claims you, there is no way back.

🔱 The Vision

I prayed for weeks — and then, She manifested before my very eyes.
Her form was terrifying

  • Standing over Lord Shiva

  • Tongue out, dripping red

  • Fierce, awakened, unstoppable

That was the day I knew — my prayers were not whispers into the void.
They had reached Her.


🛕 The Shopkeeper & His Gana

For that shopkeeper, I stayed away for nearly two years.
Now, I only visit once or twice a week.

I still hold a rare photograph — a single frame where his Gana was caught on camera.
An ethereal presence, unmistakably not of this world.


☠️ Descent into Shamshan Kali

Later, I went deeper — into the terrifying form of Shamshan Kali
the Goddess who reigns in graveyards,
the Mother who dissolves illusion with a single glance.


🍵 The Goldbees Tea Guy Incident

One afternoon, during an office break, I stopped by a small tea stall — run by Mr. Goldbees Tea Guy.

I asked him for a bud and, without thinking, said:

“Beta, please give it.”

He lost it.
He was three times my age — how dare I call him beta?

I apologized, but deep down I knew… it wasn’t me who had spoken.

The next morning, while bending down, he was suddenly kicked from behind by an unseen force.
He told me later:

“Yaar, subah jhuk pad gayi.”

His body folded into an inverted ‘U’ — 180 degrees.
I knew instantly Who had done it.

I prayed to Kali Maa — begged Her for forgiveness, for healing.
In three days, he was perfectly fine.


⚡ The Essence of My Journey

This has been my journey — chaotic, humbling, miraculous.

I’ve witnessed:

  • Her fury that destroys

  • Her love that nurtures

  • Her justice that strikes

  • Her power that protects

Kali Maa is not for the faint of heart.
She is not a sweet lullaby.
She is the wild storm that clears your soul in ways you never imagined.

And this — what I share now — is the best I can do to put Her story, and mine, into words.

Hope you felt even a glimpse of Her.


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